Chantix really does make those urges bearable. It's roughest for me in the mornings, and in the afternoons when I'm bored. Being bored is the worst. One of the places I had smoked the most was in the car while I was driving. Now, it's just the opposite. I got a nice cherry lemonade air freshener in my car to make it smell nice, and while I'm driving is probably now the time when I think about smoking the least. Weird.
Before if I had an urge it would be so powerful and actually physically painful that I could not resist it. Now when I have an urge it's more of an irritant that I wish would leave my brain. I know I don't want to smoke, and I know I'm not going to give in, so there's no need to have those thoughts, right? Makes sense to me. But I still have them anyways.
I have to tell you how nice it is to be able to breathe. Here it is 5:20a.m. and I'm tired and just yawned. I could feel the air go way down deep and fill up my lungs. What a nice feeling. I also had a horrible wheeze. When I laid down or anything I had this horrible squeak, or sometimes a deep rumbling every time I inhaled and exhaled. Now it's gone. Well, I'm sure I probably still have a wheeze deep down in there, but I can't hear it anymore. Thankfully, because all that noise sure did make it hard to fall asleep at night! I am also coughing less and less each day. When I coughed before sometimes it was so bad my youngest daughter would get scared that I was going to die.
I still have not had any bad side effects. Yesterday I was feeling very paranoid, but I'm sure that was because I heard my front door handle jiggle, and then after that I was super sensitive to every single noise. So I don't think the paranoia was because of the Chantix. I'm sure it was just me being nervous about being home alone.
So here I am, early in the morning on Quit Day 5, and I'm feeling pretty good about things!